April 24, 2014: Finally, graduating soon!
CHENNIE MARIE OMOSO MONTERO
BA MASS COMMUNICATION
UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES CEBU
My academic journey will end few days from now.
Looking back, I realized it was one tough ride but one thing’s for sure, it was worth it.
I remember how difficult it was on my first semester in UP. I was so used to my previous University’s environment, in terms of the place, the people around including students and professors. It was so different and hard for me to adapt, I was always left out and intimidated by the really smart people in school (which honestly made me feel like I’m dumb or less smarter). It took me long to blend in and got used to it.
All the hard work - lots of sleepless nights (for projects and late night study for an exam or quiz), so much pressure of reaching deadlines and balancing studies with modeling career…everything is paid off. :’)
I held on to faith, and I became a better person every step as I move forward on that journey.
I’m beyond thankful to UP and to everyone who have been my mentor and inspiration to have kept me going. I wouldn’t be where and who I am right now if not for them.
To my teachers, thank you for the knowledge and wisdom which I will for surely bring with me as I’ll enter the real world soon.
To my parents, Mom and Dad. Rosenie Montero andHen Montero. I love you both. I offer all my achievements and success to you. Dad, thank you so much for working hard for us, in return, the graduation soon will be my gift for all your efforts. Mom, thank you for consistently giving me guidance and strength. Thank you for your words of wisdom. To my whole family, thank you for the unconditional love and support.
To my boyfriend, Aljen Araneta. Thank you, my love for your unending love and support ever since. Thank you for lifting my spirit all the time, for reminding me that everything will be okay (because I worry a lot). Thank you for believing in my potentials and for helping me learn to love myself more. Thank you for being the best confidant and boyfriend I could ever ask for.
To my friends, thank you for your greetings, cheers and support. I truly appreciate them.
And lastly, thank you so much, Lord!
To all the graduates of Batch 2014, congratulations to us!
We will all be leaving soon the portals of UP, but we will bring along with us the values we have taught during our academic journey…
Nurtured to create. Inspired to Innovate. Destined to Serve.
Honor, Pride and Excellence.
Mabuhay ang Iskolar ng Bayan!
April 23, 2014: Sasablay ako! :’)
(The Filipino word, “Sablay” may mean a failure to others but in UP, it’s the other way around. This signifies a graduate’s journey has successfully ended)
Above is a photo of Candidates for Graduation (Bachelor of Arts (Mass Communication)). For more of the list, visit this page:
I arrived home and checked my notifications. I saw that the list of graduates has been posted already. While waiting for the page to load, I made a sign of the cross (I swear, I was so nervous - my hands were cold and my heart was beating fast). When I saw my name, I instantly cried for joy. I shouted, “Thank you, Lord!”
Sasablay ako on the 30th soon!
Congratulations to all graduates of 2014!
My thank you speech will be posted soon, along with the graduation photos. ;)
April 16, 2014: Where do I go from here…
It’s almost graduation. And as my academic journey ends, I start to think how will my future look like. Questions regarding my future career keep me occupied: will I really be able to reach my dreams or goals? Will I be able to handle the reality?
Honestly, I feel excited but scared and nervous. Those emotions when mixed up don’t create a good feeling at all.
You have plans but it seems like they won’t happen the way you planned them to be, thinking that you will just go through a straight path before you can actually reach your goals. But no, nothing worth having comes easy. I realized that God has better plans and I should leave it up to him. I should do what I need to do which is to take it one step at a time - find a high paying job and save up to pursue what I want. Because let’s face it, it’s hard to fulfill what you really want or love to do when you don’t have enough money.
I’m stuck and confused of whether I should go for the high paying job or for one that I really like to do or be involved with, which is production.
As of what I heard, our local production companies here don’t pay big. And that worries me. I don’t think it will be enough. So I’m thinking maybe in call centers. They say they pay big, plus they have benefits.
Then the question comes in. Where do I go from here? or So which should I choose? I realized that I’ll be able to save up big if I choose a high paying job but at the same time I feel sad that I’m working at something not so much related to what I’ve studied.
In the end, you’ll come to think of it…
We all need money first, before we pursue what we want or before we can be fulfilled, aside from the people important to us, our love ones. Even with our basic needs, we can’t acquire them without money. Reality bites. Reality sucks.
Another chapter of the book of my life will be open soon. And it shall be facing the real world now.
(Photographed by Banawe Corvera)
April 13, 2014: Too much negativity
I can’t keep my mind at peace lately. I have been so preoccupied with worries. It’s my nature that I immediately worry, thus I easily get caught up by nervousness. But this time, I worry about a lot of things (than the usual)…I worry about bad things that might happen. I’m trapped in my thoughts - negative thoughts and these make me paranoid. What’s worse is that I’m not sure what the real reason is - why I have been so bothered. There’s no definite reason, by that I mean no particular event, thing, or person has caused this…maybe. I would ask myself, is it about studies? your career? the future? Or a mix of everything I just mentioned? Sigh, I really can’t tell and it saddens me. I don’t understand why I’m dealing with this alone when I have people who care for me, my love ones who will be ready to listen to me and guide me with words of wisdom. But how will I express it when I don’t even know how to say what I’m dealing with. Sometimes I think that it’s some sort of “graduation blues”. Is it normal for someone who has extended college and who wants to graduate already to experience or feel this? Oh the agony of waiting. Graduation is still at the end of the month. I still have to deal with these emotions all mixed up - excited, scared and nervous.
I have to fight them through diversion. I wake up to all these thoughts every morning and I just let them out through working out. And I sleep to the same thoughts at night. I can forget about it in the middle of the day but when I’m alone, especially when I’m not doing anything, I think of it again. It’s suffering me. I choose to be happy and I want to be positive but the thoughts, they’re eating it all away.
Every time I would think it’s hard to handle already, I would just repeat this in my mind:
Hope. Faith. Believe.
I got to keep reminding myself that one.
I have to be happy…I should choose that because there are a lot of reasons to be. And faith…I gotta keep the faith and trust in His plans.
Photographed by Banawe Corvera
April 7, 2014: My childhood best friend’s graduation day
I was also present on her high school graduation years ago.
Congratulations, Patty! I’m so happy for you! :’)
I wish you all the best! Good luck and God bless you on the board exams soon! I know you can do it! :*
I love you!
"…I hardly ever see your profile, but have I told you it’s beautiful? - like soft gentle lines of snow…"
My inspiration/motivation board :) Im more inspired with Candice’s abs and I will work this summer for that. #mustgetthoseabs #backontrack #workout #inspiration #motivation
March 22, 2014: HUM-1 Carcar-Argao Educational tour
Argao, Cebu, Philippines
Carcar City, Cebu, Philippines
March 25, 2014: For the man I love and today’s 6th sweet 25th ♥
I am no poet like Lang Leav or Pablo Neruda.
But I was inspired to write a poem for the man I love.
This is for someone really close to my heart. :’)
"In Unending Bliss of your Love"
While we walked with our hands held together
It seemed that the world slowed down
As when I felt every movement
A single touch was electrifying
Little did you notice
I stared at your face as you looked away
With each glance, I sighed
When you caught me looking, you would ask why
I say nothing but it’s without doubt,
You make me the happiest
As I stared at those eyes that always melt me
I found one of many reasons to live
You turned my life around
I’m more alive now and inspired as one can ever be
With you I find serenity
As calm as the waves of the ocean
My mind calms down instantly
In your arms, I’m in a different kingdom
Confined in a place full of hope and unending bliss
So comfortable it is
How I wish it would never cease
March 20, 2014: Surprise on a random day by this man right here :’)
I got his text message while I was still in class.
He said he was already out from the office and asked me about my vacant time.
I told him I was still in class and would be free from 10:30am to 2:30pm.
I asked him why and he said nothing.
When I went out from class, he called me.
This was how the conversation went on the phone…
A: "Are you already out, my love? Where are you going?"
C: "Yes love. I’ll go to Mcdonalds. I’ll spend my vacant time there to review because I’ll have an exam later at 2:30pm. Are you home already?"
A: "Yes I’m home already, my love" (in a tone that sounded like he wasn’t serious. By this time, I thought something was wrong)
C: "Okay my love. I have to keep my phone now because I’ll go out of the gate already." (I didn’t want to attract suspicious people to steal my phone)
A: "Okay, can I go with you?"
Then he surprisingly appeared beside me while saying that. I was shocked, I shouted.
It was definitely a highlight of my day. :’)
Thanks for the random surprise, my love!
I love you!
March 12, 2014: Awarding of Honorific Scholars
It felt surreal when the ceremony started, especially when the recognition background music (that sounded like it was already graduation) started while all of us were walking on the way to our respective seats. I was so happy, I almost cried (I just had to hold it back because I didn’t want to be judged as over reacting but seriously, I was overjoyed. I was so sure mom was as well because I kept looking at the back where parents sat, she had this beautiful and incredible big smile on her face. When I hugged her, I saw her teary eyes) while seating there on my seat, reminiscing the emotional and physical stress I had to deal with in the past semesters.
All those sleepless nights and sacrifices for academics…all the hard work’s paid off!
I’m so happy for the fruits of labor. :’) And I have the Lord to thank it for (it was faith that made me stronger each day. It was the only thing I hold on to since then). And of course, to my source of inspiration, mommy and daddy, to my family and to my love, thank you so much for your unconditional love and support as always. You guys lift my spirits up and give me the reason to strive hard and not give up. UP is such a battle in terms of academics. It’s so hard to study in a school with such high standards but I’m proud to say, though it was a tough road, I still made it through.
I’ll be ending this academic journey really soon. :’)
Thank you, Lord!
To God be the Glory!
This is for you mommy and daddy!